I have hoped and prayed for four years for a new baby. I had finally come to the point that one was a great, it was easy and how lucky I am to have one. Infertility is so frustrating and disappointing every month. You find yourself really going a little crazy and everywhere you look people seem to be pregnant. I would think this is suppose to be easy, it is suppose to happen when I am ready and why won’t my body work. So we decided after trying we would give fertility a chance and give it a try. It really is not a short process and you go through surgeries, dyes, lots of appointments, and then I started becoming scared of the whole process. I put it off for awhile and was just irritated my body would not do what I wanted it to. Finally in May I went back to the doctor and said ok I am ready. (I think) We started the whole thing and you walk into the hospital passing all these ladies that look so uncomfortably pregnant and you go to office and see these brochers about stress and infertility and I thought that is it! I am stressed! Maybe this will not work because I am stressed, about timing, about it taking, about twins. How could I possibly relax when their are so many steps that have to happen to become pregnant, not alone the constant question of my age and that I am not in my twenties anymore, well I know, my clock is ticking. I honestly didn’t think it would work. I had anticipated being disappointed and having to do the shots and feel like I had been in a hotdog eating contest and won from the meds. You wait and wait, you are counting days, cycles, going blind from looking at lines to see if it is the time to go in or not, making your husband poke a needle in your stomach. It seemed like the longest wait ever. I took for granted with Alexa how everything happened so easy. I might have made my husband crazy too with the do I look fat? or I don’t think it worked, to joking it was going to be Max and Ruby. I am glad to say we are 12 weeks pregnant with twins! Something that I was so frightened of I am so over the moon about. So here is a good photo of them from today.