Happy Mothers Day.. To be Continued.

I have  every once in awhile these panic attacks of not having any photos with my Alexa, my baby. I don’t know I ever really understood it until I became a mother. She will always be my baby.  There is a part in a Billy Joel song, I think it is call the Lullaby song and it always makes me tear up a little when it says at the end “you will always be a part of me”.  You just don’t know that feeling until you hold your child. I just love her so much and you see there struggles and you just want to fix it for them and want it all to be easy for them. So Sunday I bribed her to let me take some photos of me and  her, even though I am not thrilled with photos of me, I am going to do it. After all it is isn’t going to get better right? How will she remember me? Behind a computer? I don’t know, I want her to have as many happy memories as I did as a child with my mom. I remember my mom making my dad muffins one morning just because, and when ever I am tired and slightly annoyed at my husband I think back to that and remember all of the good points, and how making muffins for him just because is showing him how much I care. I need to start doing alot of things just because.. it is nice.  And even the times I want to bury my head under the covers I need to count myself very lucky for having such a great mom who showed me how to love by how she loves my dad.